Lessons....and moving on

“You take whatever works from wherever you can find it, and you keep moving toward the light.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert

The last few months have been full of interesting and sometimes painful learning experiences. In some ways, I feel like I've lost my footing....my trust has been shaken and I have had to walk away from people, places, and things that once were once an integral part of my daily life.

As I've said before, Change is messy, uncomfortable, and scary.

And it doesn't follow my schedule.

Change is like a river....it goes along at its own pace, twisting and turning according to its own path. 

It's up to me whether to fight the current and swim upstream (**painful**) or to go with the flow of the current, trusting that I will end up exactly where I'm meant to be (not my default reaction).

Going with the flow does not mean that I'm going to arrive at the end of the journey unscathed...in fact, chances are that I'm going to get some bumps and bruises along the way.

But at least I'm heading in the right direction.

Fighting the current is exhausting.

It involves pushing against something/one stronger than me, something/one who is fighting me every step of the way, something/one whose goal is for me NOT to end up in the direction that I'm heading.

My experience shows me that all bets are off when I try to do this....no tricks are off limits. Hitting below the belt is definitely allowed. That something/one fights dirty and I will never win.

Why do I continue to waste my time and energy fighting a fight that I cannot win when it's so much easier to ride the current in the direction that it's going?

Perhaps one day I will discover the answer to that questions, but today is not that day.

Today, I am willing to let go and stop trying to hold on to things/people in the past that no longer serve the person I am in this moment.

I have some clarity today. 
I am moving forward into my future.
People and events from my past helped to create the woman I am today...but some will not join me on this next phase of my adventure.
I don't have the strength (or desire) to carry that load another step.
I am leaving that baggage right here...
and walking away.

Peace and Love,
xo